Aku, Kopi dan Nescafe..

Kopi dan nescafe....
dua benda yg mengaktifkan aku..
dua bnda yg aku x boleh nak elak
dan dua benda yg aku suka minum sejak tahun ini...

Kopi dan nescafe..
dalam masa yg sama memberi kesan kepada aku..
membentuk diriku yg baru...
memberi semangat yg dalam dkat aku...

Kopi dan nescafe...
mula suka pada kamu..
bila saat aku hadapi masa-masa kritikal
terutama pada tahun ini..

Kopi dan nescafe...
kenapa dulu aku minum, tiada kesan sampingan?
kenapa sekarang aku minum, efek kafeinnya dkat aku melampau?
hmm.. aku tau aku dh tua...
Semua bnda yg aku bt skang semua nya ada efek... hmm

Kopi dan nescafe...
bila aku minum korang, aku jadi lain...
terlebih over, terlebih tenaga, terlebih peramah, terlebih gila, semuanya terlebih...
bila kesan korg dh xde..
aku jd letih dan xbermaya+ mcm nk pengsan pun ada....

Kopi dan nescafe...
kenapa aku perlu korang lebih pada masa ni?
sbb apa?
sbb aku mau jadi happy sentiasa...
sbb aku nk ilangkan nervous dan kesedihan aku...
dan paling penting sbb korang dpat sembunyikan perasaan dan jiwa aku yg sebenarnya...

Kopi dan nescafe...
tanpa aku sedari korg bgi impak negatif dkat aku..
aku perlukan korg mcam aku perlukan dadah...
even skrang pun aku sakit kepala dan hampir nk demam sbb korg...

Kopi dan necafe...
sbb korang aku rasa aku mcm nk migrain..
sbb korg aku rasa mcm nk pecah kepala..
tp sbb korg jugak aku dpat berfikir dgn sempurna walau utk seketika...

Kopi dan nescafe...
sampai bila aku harus bergantung pada korang?
sampai bila?
mungkin sampai aku mula idup baru aku nanti?
hmmm... mungkin? mungkin? seribu kali kemungkinan...

Kopi dan nescafe...
aku berterima kasih pada korang..
sbb membuatkan hariku ceria bila aku minum korang..
walaupun aku tau korang akan bagi kepala aku rasa nk pecah bila korang dh ilang...

Kopi dan nescafe...
Aku rasa nk demam skarang ...sbb ape?
sbb baru pas jwab exam yg sememangnya gunakan KBKK cukup2..
tpp sbb korang jugaklah aku boleh berfikir td...

Kopi dan nescafe..
mmg btol dan kena dgn slogan yg digunakan..
"hidup ceria dgn nescafe"...

~tibanya masa utk aku nk ambik panadol...~

p/s korang mmg best... serius ketagih... tapi side effectnya bg aku jd mcm org gila dibuatnya.. huhuhuhu...

Kestressan melanda...

Yup.. Me are so stress rite now.. y and y and y everything that read mcm hampeh je x masuk... dh la esok paper mass media tu pagi... Arghh...

oleh sbb itu aku mau motivate diri aku dngan nyanyi... lantak la org sbelah umah nk marah... huhuhuhu...
hopefully, mood aku n hati aku ni dtg balik utk baca buku... waaaaa.......

u can do it! u can do it... (bagi semangat dkat diri sendiri)

Laskar Pelangi by Nidji

mungkin adalah kunci
untuk kita menaklukkan dunia
telah hilang
tanpa lelah sampai engkau
meraihnya

laskar pelangi
takkan terikat waktu
bebaskan mimpimu di angkasa
raih bintang di jiwa

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersukurlah pada yang kuasa
cinta kita di dunia

selamanya...

cinta kepada hidup
memberikan senyuman abadi
walau ini kadang tak adil
tapi cinta lengkapi kita

laskar pelangi
takkan terikat waktu
jangan berhenti mewarnai
jutaan mimpi di bumi

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia takseindah surga
bersukurlah pada yang kuasa
cinta kita di dunia

selamanya...

p/s :lagu ni mcm tenang la plak bila dgr time stress... Lagipun lagu ni ttg hidup... hehehe...
woi dah la tu balik la p study.... Arghhhhh!!!!!

Kemalasan melanda but I have to study.. Arghh...

malas.. malas.. ape nk jadi aku pun tatau... Aku xnak redha.. mY final exam starts this coming Thursday.. damm.. y am i so stubborn to study????

focus!focus!focus!

plzz.... gambatte... ingatlah org yg tersayang... :p eh ape aku mrepek ni? huhuhuhu

p/s Need someone to encourage me... hahaha....

Mengharap? Absolutely Not...

Mengharap? No.. No... I'm not depending on everybody... Why? Sebab my mother taught me not to depend on anyone.. Always prepare a backup for the safety... Yup.. That's the fact to play safe in this reality world..

I am making friends for the sake of having advantages or craving something from them???? lagilah nonsense... My feelings towards my friends are sincere and I haven't be friends of others for the sake of my own advantages and so on.... I just accept them the way they are... and stop saying that I am making friends to get something from them... That's so ridiculous.... grrr.. and I never hoping any high expectation or anything from them.. How can my sincerity been questioned??? I just can't believe and shocked with that annoyed statement... Arghhh.... Hello???!!!

I just love all my friends~~

Best Friends Reunited...

Selepas 6 tahun terpisah... akhirnya, aku jumpa jugak my best friend aku time sek men dulu, missdiyana aka Dian... Dia adalah kwn nakalku.. byk bnda dh aku wat sesama ngan dia ... dari lepak bwh pokok time kelas, ponteng kelas latih tubi sesama, pegi redah kwsan perkuburan sbb nk pegi shopping complex.. ha semua la..hahaha.. nakal siot... tp seyes lama gila x jumpa kan,Dian.. wuwuwuwu... asyik x jadi je kalo nk jumpa... tapi akhirnya kita dapat gak jumpa... wawawa... bila dapat jumpa... ha..sembang mmg x igt dunia lah... adeh.. bila lagi kita mau ketemu .. waaaa...I am so glad and super duper happy sbb dpt jumpa her again... Dian.. thanks sebab sudi jumpa aku.. Rasa mcm x cukup ja masa lepak tadi... sob..sob.. aku rasa mcm nk pg balik zaman dulu.. huhuhu... wei kalo turun kl lagi jgn lupa roger aku... Friends Forever!!! ingat yg penting... "Maintain Muda Gitu"... wakakaka...

Me and Dian yg cute...

Kami yg maintain muda.. wahahaha

After 6 years... kami tetap gila2 mcm dulu... Riuh itu penting... hahaha...

Peoples that I miss the most this current few days..

my 'sporting' mom and dad...

My lil sis..

my high school best friend, Dian...

my diploma's best friend... ika

p/s: guys... I just miss all of u rite now... deep in my heart... huhuhuhu... really... sob..sob.. :'(
nk korang semua sekarang leh x.. plz... huhuhuhu...

Yours Truly....

Smalam merangkap 24hb Oktober.. apsal ntah semua org tetiba jadi sepi dan serabut... dan ntah kenapa aku pun tatau... sampai tetiba lak aku pun jadi tersepi kejap.. haish.. x sukanya aku mcm ni... kalo boleh aku nk elak jauh2 dh perasaan mcm ni.. tp dia terdatang jugak... huhuhuhu... pasrah...

The truly heart says...
deep in my heart, i just kinda tired... too tired with all the things which happens to me... but at this point of time, "silence is golden" is the best word or phrase which i hold on rite now... yup.... patience is all about.. I really can't wait and excited to finish my studies and starting a new life... yes, a really new life... aku nk tggalkan semuanya ni...why? bcoz i just hate pretender, tired sbb asik nk kena jaga hati org lain but other peoples are not even care less about my heart or feelings anyway, sick with all the lies or even liars, org asyik pijak kepala and etc... Yeah, I know it will be more worse when I'm entering into the jobs field anyway... I just know that... and I know that I have to face with this kind of peoples sampai mati.... Just because I'm like this... hmm... whateverlah!!! apa2 pun, I just want to leave all the past behind. Besides, I'm not an important person to anyone.. Tiada lagi kepentingan... So lebih baik aku mulakan langkah... What happened in past will stay in past and I'll say hello to the new life....

The truly fact are...
Yeah... I'm really a stubborn girl tanpa disedari and mempunyai ego di tahap yg tinggi nk mampus if there's someone who have made something which really makes me losing my faith or my goodness has been spoiled... susah mau jadi mcm dulu.. susah sgt2... ohh.. there are peoples call me 'lalang'... but it doesn't means that i don't have my own pendirian dlm memajukan diri... and it doesn't mean that i don't have a self respect from other persons....

The truly emotion rite now:
-I just miss the moments on the old days... not in degree mode... degree are my years of suffering psychically and mentally... I have doing a lot of crying, heartbreaking,suffering and so on... personally and academically ... But I'm really glad it will be ended soon...
- I just miss my old best friend of mine.. Dian.. We are not seeing each other nearly for 6 years... Dian, tlg bawak lari aku gi UK!!!! plzzz.. hehehe...


p/s tetiba lak aku revealkan the truly of emotions of me kan... hehe...actually aku xmo sbb menurut my bro en.mellow... dia pernah cakap dkat aku even kita menderita skalipun, biar la org igt kita happy je mcm xde masalah yg happen pada kita... tp kan bro, tu la tu... slalu happy and senyum tu mmg dh slalu sgt dah adikmu ni praktik... tp ntahlah tetiba lak hari ni jadi penat lak...Penat dgn segala2nya.... anyway credits to my bro sbb dh byk ajar ttg kehidupan ni.. kamu byk sedarkan aku ttg erti syukur, bagi aku menjadi kuat, kuat utk mengharungi hidup di saat2 aku paling down... yup... kamu byk menyedarkanku tanpa kamu sedari... thanks a lot bro...

The truly me... Yup.. Im too tired!!!!!

We all yg giller...

Many peoples thought us that we are too nice in class and outside too...
Actually we're not that nerd or even good like an angel.. ok..
we just like everyone else who are crazy inside and outside...
cuma dlam kelas kena la focus.. x gitu geng2ku... hehehe...

gambo2 single yg sewel...

Macam2 aktiviti yg kami dh buat together.. hehehe...

Hari ini aku rindu...

rindu..
pada siapa jua tidak ku pasti..
pada keluarga.. mungkin... pada rakan lama?
atau kekasih di hati? ahh.. aku tak pasti..

ya sememangnya aku x pasti...
tapi yg ku tahu aku sedang rindukan seseorang...
diri terasa kosong...
melankolik jiwa sedang berdansa di dalam hati..

mungkinkah cuaca?
di mata sayup melihat awan gelap,
membuat hati jua terasa perasaan ini
aku xpasti...

lagu bernyanyi di corong speaker,
fikir aku... rindu pada diriku yang lamakah?
atau mungkin pada emakku..
sampai sekarang aku fikir...

otakku seribu kali melayang...
kenapa tetiba rindu...
pada siapa aku juga tak tahu...

rintik air mula lebat..
mata aku layu,
mungkin perlukan aku utk lena sebentar,
dan perasaan itu akan hilang..
bila aku terjaga..

ini semua permainan jiwa,
yang pastinya, aku punya kerja lagi...
utk aku siapkan...
titik....

*masa utk aku pengsan*

selamat....

suka... aku nak terbang ke langit.. boleh?

At last this week is over...

My head currently playing song...Fall For You by Second Hand Serenade again and again... So in love with the music arrangement of the song.. Seeing the lyric makes me wonder who is the lucky man of mine (ker? ekeke..) which really can give me this lyric and really mean it.. Kakakaa... Yup... I guess I'm starting to mumbling...

This evening, our house just being attacked by a monkey... It's like a suspense moment for all my house mates including me to make that monkey went away... Guess what that monkey had stole our kuih raya!!! bad monkey!!! Then, that monkey had went away after its stomach is full with kuih raya.... Deep in my heart, i guess that the monkey will be come again another time. Maybe with its friends or alone.... Well, of course maa... that monkey has just find out a target that our house as a port to get free foodS.. damm you monkey!! bcoz of u all of us have to beware .. close all the windows at all the time... huhuhuhuhu... I hope ur visit on that evening is the first and the last... No more kuih raya or foods for u... big Sayonara... K... ahaha...


Words of today:
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

A New Day... Perhaps...

I wish and I wish... I'll find a beautiful day for me......

Everything happens have their own reasons and maybe the real life wants me to change and be more mature about this evil world... yUp the new me is out now.... Goodbye the old day...
Say hello to the future...

Currently Listening to:
Betapa by Sheila On 7

Hari ujan.... so I am doing a survey...

1. Who among your friends know the real you?

-rose, nona, karen and nu'ui.... we've been together for almost 5 years...

2. When was the last time you went out?

- last friday... umah kak kuza punya open house...

3.If you could kiss anyone who would it be?

- my mom... i love u mak!!!

4. What song are you listening to?

-Selepas Kau Pergi by Laluna

5. Who does it remind you of?

- My ex... :P

6. Last movie you watched?

-Sex and The City.....

7. Which of your friends live close to you?

- karen, nona and rose

8. What is your favorite shirt?

- My favourite shirt? a lot.. and I love wearing t-shirt all the times.. ;)

9. Do you drive?

- yes...

10. What did you do yesterday?

- study and remember for my final japan oral.. but at last mcm hampeh jugak kot...

11. Do you wear contacts or glasses?

- nope

12. Do you trust your friends?

- yess i do and I really do... that's why once my trust has been spoiled, its been soO and SoO hard to get my trust again... And I don't know when but I believe time will heal it..

13.Who was the last person called you?

- Nazrul...

14.What/who annoys you?

- all the tests and datelines... it's killing me... argghh...

15. Do you want multiple piercing?

- Yess... I do... ekekeke...

16. Your favorite song in your list?

-Currently... Fall For You by Second Hand Serenade

17. Last time you went to the mall?

-It's been a long time I haven't go to the mall.. Everyday and every moment is like a hectic for me...

18. What was the last thing you ate?

-nasi ayam Mancongkam... sek7 ... nasi ayam garing...

19. Which of your friends would make the best room mate?

-My sis.. She's the best...

20. last thing you bought?

- a t-shirt... byk T-shirt dah lusuh... wuwuwuwu...

21. Last vacation you were in?

- cuti raya la.. mana ada cuti lagi... really need a vacation

22. Do people ever spell your name wrong?

-Mostly people spell my name correctly and mostly wrong ... It's not Kalilah but Khalilah...

23. Who was the last friend you hugged?

- Nona because Karen told us that Communication and Planning class was being canceled but lastly, the class is not cancel...

24. Which celeb are you eye candying?

- Ashraf Sinclair... Ekekekeke...

25. Which band's concert would you want to watch?

-Daughtry

26. What color are your nails?

- natural

27. Date down a special day for you?

- The day I am married to somebody

28. In just one word, describe yourself.

- Blur and Sengal

Oh my... I need another vacation.. please....

Uhuhuhuhu... Gosh I really need a vacation... This week.. Plzz... Could u be gone sooner ... It's kinda lots and lots of things to do... But I still manage to do my blog.. ehehehe...
Just now, I accidentally remembered the moment when my cousin, my aunt and I are on the way going back to KL from my house in K.Terengganu... At first, my cousin and I are decided to go at Pantai Buruk Beach just to sit down, relax and taking some pictures before going back to KL... But times are not enough for us having that moment. Plus with the rain in every evening, we have just to stay at home and watching tv. aiyoo... I thought there will be no more beaches because of the raining.. I am so damm sad... So do with my cousin... On the way back to KL, there is still raining... Hurm...
Suddenly, the rains stops... On that time we were at Rantau Abang, Terengganu... My cousin ask me whether we should stop or not.. I just gave her a meaningful smile. hahaha... That time, we are so excited at searching for a nice beach to stop... And then..... at the corner of the road... we found a nice sandy beach which is beautiful and meaningless for me to describe. It's so calm and nice plus with the environment that is so gorgeous... hehehe... Plus, on that time the rain just stop so, the air is so nice and the beach is not that hot... For me it's a very nice moment for me to remember and I wish to go to that beach again and again with that moment... Forgetting my real life and enjoy the beach with a nice music and air.... Can I?

Smooth Sandy beach

The beach after rain

Me happy...

My cousin and I... We are glad to have this moment... ekekeke...

Lapar...

Sejak kebelakangan ni asik lapo je la aku... makan and makan and makan... btol stress ni... actually, this week is my killer week... bz sebz2nya... sabo je la... kalo bleh nk skip je minggu ni.. tapi x leh la... huhuhu...nk wat mcm ne tepaksa la...

So, hari ni aku just nk share gambo raya la sbb skang musim raya lagi.. hehehe....

nk balik raya wei...


my family

ni pose berdiri lak ok...

3 beradik je x byk... hehehe...

bosan...blom sempat habis buat family pose org dah dtg umah.. aiyoo..

Datelines and all sort of things...

yeah... musim kpala pening dah kembali... adeh la.. balik je dari raya trus teringat keje yang mmg tgh menimbun dan tgh menunggu.. hahaha... aku hanya mampu tersenyum bila tgk byk gila datelines and all the tests yg mmg boleh bg aku jadi gila ni... even skang ni pun tgh pikir mcm mana aku nk bahagi badan aku utk siapkan semua keje.. leh x? huhuhuhu...

rite now aku rehat jap... so boleh la aku memblogkan diri jap... ekekeke... kak ros tgh ambik alih keje aku mengedit lak... fuh lega nasib ada ros.. leh bahagi keje gak.. kalo x ada nk tertiarap gak la aku mengedit benda alah ni... asik mengadap je sampai bnda lain pun agak x fokus.. wuwuwuwu...

raya retue agak best la gak.. bukan best raya... best dapat balik umah... balik je umah tetiba je rasa tenang.. wakakaka... bkn pe.. dduk shah alam asik pikir keje je... balik umah ha ambik... gemuk kot aku dduk umah... sekejap gila badan aku naik... sekelip mata siot... adeh la...
hahaha... kena kurus kan balik ni... wuwuwuwu...

sepanjang aku cuti raya retue byk gak la aku travel... bkn travel ape... memandangkan my current house skang dkat terengganu, so nk balik raya dkat perak retue agak luas permandangan.... masuk utan kuar utan... naik bukit turun bukit... hahaha.. mmg adventure sungguh... aku asik doa je jgn gajah melintas tgh jalan time nk balik perak dari terengganu retue... mau aku x doa... jalan tu siap tulis 'kawasan pelepasan gajah' ...haish neves ek aku...wakakaaka...even dkat perak pun family aku xstay on satu umah je... byk umah gak la kitaorg stay... so memandangkan byk umah.. so lagi byk la aku makan... makan dan makan dan makan...

sepanjang cuti raya retue ada la beberapa nama jalan dan tempat yg kelakar yg aku jumpa... Antaranya:

-Sungai Tergeliat - dkat Kuala Berang, Terengganu kalo x silap...
- Panggong Lalat - kawasan atas pada Tasik Kenyir kalo x silap....
-Kedai Perabot Adik Beradik Mak - Sungai Siput, Perak
-Kedai Komik Haha- Salak, Perak

time aku tgk nama2 tempat ni teringat aku pada Zahid, dia jumpa nama tempat dkat area Seremban lagi la kelakar... nama tempat tu 'Jalan Dato' Siamang Gagap'. Hehehehe...

Udah merapik aku ni... huhuhuhu... ok la sblom aku merapu x tentu hala ni baikla aku stop dulu.. hehehe... daaa...

currently listening to:
Crush by David Archuleta