How tO Increase It??

My sis was coming to KL for a short trip.
She's having some training for three days..
I'm glad meeting her even for a while and talk with her...
At that moment I am so relief to tell her bout everything...

Other than that..
I wish I can see another positive perspective on the other way...
Yup always think positive..

I hate when I think/do:
- Feel that sometimes I'm not even eligible at all for certain things
- I'm not even feel confidence at myself
- Give up easily
- Emotional and can't chill out...
- I'm not beautiful nor attractive at all

Maybe I should be more respect to others and myself of course, always bless on whatever I have rite now,be more calmer but wise!! and last but not least be more proactive on physical and mental

Note to myself,
Please be more confident Kell!!I know I can do it..

P/s
Mybe I need to go for a self esteem camp most probably...
I don't wnt to be a weak woman.. Huh..